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Finding it hard at this particular moment to find grounding. I'm upset today because I realize I'm not happy without certain outside substances. I know that Being Born where I am and having been raised here was all for a purpose. Yet I'm still trying to figure it all out, as most still are. My 19th year in this vessel is a week from today and I've been smoking Mary Jane and tobacco for 3 years now, due to my environment. I live in a small pot village... even our mayor smokes and grows large quantities of the stuff. But recently I've been extremely upset that I've grown dependent upon these substances. When I don't smoke I'm imbalanced and cannot cope with everyone's bullshit.... meaning the small things people do that are idiotic. I'm reaching out for any advice/personal experience. I just feel now that I'm killing, let me rephrase, I feel like I'm disrespecting the vessel I currently occupy and it's 'killing' my spirit as this unnecessary act continues. I fear if I stop I'll go mad and loose my grip on reality.
This is the first time I've really said anything about myself on this site, I just realized. :) any advice is wonderful!
I love you all!