Hey everyone. I just quit cigarettes three days ago. I wanted to share the experience.
The third day has always been one of the toughest for me. I have quit before, and have stayed off smoking for years. For some reason the third day is a doozy, and then I get hit again about the second week.
My heart is flying in my chest, and my anxiety levels are sky high. Sleeping has been tough, and broken. Sometimes my house feels too small and I have to get out of it for hours.
Combined with other stresses, it has been an asskicker. Sorry for profanity, but its true. I feel like I am going crazy. Well, moments of craziness, that's for sure. I come around for a bit then go crazy for a bit.
We all have vices to kick, and sometimes we succeed and sometimes we fail and fall on our butt. But we have to at least try.
I was at an early Thanksgiving party last night. Everyone around me was smoking cigarettes. I didn't smoke a single one. Not a single one in three days. I stayed strong. i was in a great mood all night, as there was laughter and joy. The insanity didn't kick in until I was alone, with my thoughts.
I am hoping by writing this I can catharticly release some of this anxiety and stress. I know I have the strength to do it. I am not using a patch or prescription or nicorette or anything. Just quit cold turkey. Every time I quit, I managed to do it cold turkey.
I have to go back to my night job tonight. It gets very boring there. It is hard not to smoke when very bored. In fact, that is how I started up again.
Not to sound selfish, but please send your energy this way. I need the extra strength. :)
Thanks everyone, and I send you my strength for your changes as well.
Peace and love :)