What Lies on the Other Side of Self-Servingness? By Steve Beckow

[Manuel Tavares]

What Lies on the Other Side of Self-Servingness?
By Steve Beckow
https://rayviolet.blogspot.com/2022/07/what-lies-on-other-side-of-self.html

I use my awareness to uncover the truth. Uncovering the truth in turn elevates my awareness.

I’ve worked my way through ever subtler layers of egoic personality. My awareness now falls on individual words I’m using, which, I’m finding, are subtly self-serving.

I go through life living events, but then constructing a self-serving story or narrative afterwards. The truth is usually the first casualty.

What does it serve? I said earlier that I believe how we feel to be our prime motivator, in all things.

Certainly, when I look, I see I’m committed to how I feel more than anything. Our self-serving story seeks to keep us feeling the best we can imagine being – happy, proud, confident, etc. (1) Werner Erhard has called it our “winning number.”

Our story does this by locking in a favorable view of everything we thought, felt, said, and did. It attributes all failures, defeats, and losses to others – “beyond our control.”

It seeks to have us hold on to feeling good, right, distinguished, respectable, whatever our desire is. “I did this. I said that. Whatsisname said this other silly thing. But I saved the situation when I said….” ...+
https://rayviolet.blogspot.com/2022/07/what-lies-on-other-side-of-self.html