More Power than is Manageable ~ By Steve Beckow

[Manuel Tavares]

More Power than is Manageable

By Steve Beckow

Posted Abril 5, 2022

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Here’s one which relates an experience of a huge power surge that lasted a half hour, but energized my remaining negative vasanas and magnified them so much that I could see, beyond the shadow of a doubt, where they all led.

I’ve actually had the experience of a power surge three times. On another occasion than this one, the face of my ego came through, which my wife said scared her to death. I saw it from inside. The ego was red, fearsome, and horned. It scared the life out of me as well. It came through like a volcanic eruption and then disappeared.

“Sometimes a Rude Shock Can be a Good thing,” at

https://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/02/sometimes-a-rude-shock-can-be-a-good-thing/

It isn’t often that experiences happen right in the midst of things. Usually we go to a meditation retreat or a growth workshop and something happens in the course of it.

But yesterday I had an experience in the middle of the day. Nothing was happening prior and nothing happened after. It lasted for a half hour and then it was gone.

However it was life-altering and a glimpse into another realm.

Describing it will be difficult but here goes. For half an hour, I felt myself with more power coming through me and passing outwards than I could possibly imagine. I became for a time a person who … well, may as well have sprung into the physique of the Hulk, I had so much energy, so much power, so much drive passing through me.

Here I was, a human dynamo and the minute I allowed this energy to flow a millimeter in any direction, it passed through the filter of my human personality and I received a rude shock.

If someone poured a cup of mud into a bowl of punch, would I drink the punch? If someone dropped a piece of soap into my Coke, would I drink the Coke?

By the same token, the pure power passing through the filter of my personality did not emerge pure. It emerged tainted by my remaining vasanas, tainted by feelings that were ten times more powerful than when I felt them ordinarily.

The worst sides of me, which until now were completely hidden from me, were tremendously exaggerated, laid plain to sight, incapable of being misinterpreted. There is nothing hid that shall not be known, Jesus said. I now see one of the mechanisms whereby this self-revelation is done.

I didn’t like what I saw. I considered myself somewhat, maybe a tad further down the road than that, but what I saw emerging from that filter was below my standards of good be...>>>https://rayviolet.blogspot.com/2022/04/more-power-than-is-manageabl...