MARRIED OR NOT YOU SHOULD READ THIS (made me think hard) (MARRIED GUY SPEAKING) When I got home that night... my wife was serving dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ ve got something to tell you. Sh…

[Clarence Young]

MARRIED OR NOT YOU SHOULD READ THIS (made me think hard) (MARRIED GUY SPEAKING) When I got home that night... my wife was serving dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calml...y. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. i suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’ s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divotrce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have afever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I ran up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was too busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from whatever negative reaction it would have on our son, in case we pushed through with the divorce. —At least, in the eyes of our son—-I’m a loving husband…. THE SMALL DETAILS OF YOUR LIVES ARE WHAT REALLY MATTER IN A RELATIONSHIP. "IT'S NOT" the Mansion or House, the Car, Property, the Money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Most of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up... YOU DONT REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE UNTIL ITS GONE, RE-POST AS I Did

 

That is very powerful... Some people see the lesson and some don’t... But even sadder, if so many things were not shrouded in lies and money and cover ups, that man’s wife could have lived... The US government has known of a cure for multiple forms of cancer since 1974. They outlawed it. They made it a schedule 1 drug although it has never harmed anyone unless they were allergic to it. The US government tried to prevent clinic studies nationwide but with the ratification that California and 10 other states have already made... Sufficient studies have been done. You can even see evidence of it on YouTube. Catch it before they erase it... There is a guy who cures the cancerous tumor in his nose just by putting hemp oil on it for a couple of weeks... A COUPLE OF WEEKS AND HIS CANCER WAS CURED!!!! There are people who seek to eradicate freedom... They want it to almost be illegal to think unless you are one of them. They seek to manipulate the free-will of humanity because that will is the power that makes us all equal. (To make decisions) Regardless of how we look, how many limbs we have, or how much money we have, what makes us equal and what they seek to take away is the fact that just like them in our minds we can decide, "Hey, I want money... And I want to find an easy way to make a living... Just like they can... But they beat us to it... and instead of helping everyone and making a harmony of exchanges, they create competition and taught us to judge... Why do they teach us everything backwards...? Why does everyone else drive on the opposite site of the street and read from right to left? We can't be right when there are other culture and civilizations that thrived for centuries and still do... But the US is the youngest... And we are falling under faster than any other nation ever... We are individuals that are part of a whole... We know the bible was obviously tampered with, with the intent to deceive... Here is the definition of deceit via Google, but please do Google it for yourself. De-ceit: 1. The action or practice of deceiving someone by concealing or MISREPRESENTING the truth... But the bible still has in it some things that are true mixed in with other info... Live where it talks about people being taken from their home and their identities would be taken from them. And that people and wickedness in high place would do evil and pull the wool over people’s eyes... They country was supposed to be founded on a freedom that they have no intention of letting exist just like they intended to create debt out of money that didn't exist. But those basic principals were appealing to people. They were perfection. They were harmony. They are the attributes that people really needed. They have been grossly exploited! I have a big problem with the national debt... The history books have changed over the years as this constricting influence has continued to work and gain footholds by deceiving people to gain influence... Like your job may even be something you get paid to do to live, so you are just trying to survive, but the people have you doing the job... looking up so many levels where the orchestration/administration/delegation happens someone knows that the chemicals that are output are too close to people and cause health problems. But they allow it for the money. They allow it to be sloppy and detrimental to the health of the very people who are supposed to work for them. Then pay the least that can be paid for your time. (With many factors taken into account for the smart ones like legalities) But, continually they want to take from us... our health... our money with inflated prices and interest... When in the beginning the national debt was owned by the government... During the war for independence there was no military at first. They were just a bunch of people that were finally "free" and they were here. When Britain showed it was going to be a threat the congress was made to discuss what could be done. Like how to create and raise an army when they didn't have one... So the congress once they figured a plan knew the only resources that were had were what the people... Who were just like them. To make it a cooperative effort they requested that people melt down their pewter pots and pans to make bullets for the muskets and to make muskets. Even the women pitched valiant hand in making victory possible. The government at that time knew they were in debt because the people were all they had. THE PEOPLE ARE WHAT IS VALUABLE. Because if the people would not have stood up for this other government then the other government would have taken over and ruled here too. (From Britain) So the government here would have had no chance to even grow and develop. So at this point the US government was already in debt to the people in multiple ways... Even just for this government to be alive and breathe was at the whim of the people. The trick started after the war was finally won, because the government was in debt to the people, but had nothing but the people... and could not pay them back with themselves... So the government flipped the debt on the people the people by saying look... We don’t have anything to pay you but we will do you one better, we'll raise up an army to protect you from further attack (Secure the National Borders) and call it even because, "everyone can see how an army is necessary... And if we don’t have one, they will attack again. So the people agreed. And agreed to help keep the military going for the good of this new nation were they could be free. And that was the job of the Federal government. Then slowly they started requesting more out of us... People started seeing how this huge engine that was being created could be exploited... And started positioning themselves in such ways as to start funneling lots of US resources into their own pockets in the form of money... That’s why they could not even start printing money until they had people in debt to them... And then they could give them money in correspondence to have much debt they carried. When people spent money, they are just holding and then passing off someone else’s debt... Since the government was in debt to the people and the people did not have anything to give to the government collectively (Like printed debt notes/ Federal Reserve notes) that’s what made it possible for the government to start this deception... And people with it in their nature to deceive, to get together and start exploiting. This has grown exponentially huge with each generation of deceivers leaping off of the steps of the ones before them. It is putting a damper on life and growth and thriving, which is the nature of nature. We are a part of nature. Nature, when it is not destroyed by humans does not just survive... It thrives! And we are a part of nature. We are natural carbon based life-forms. So we should naturally exist in concert with nature as well. Life is created on very basic concepts. Times with the situations and scenarios that have shaped this seemingly experimental society have complicated things that are so easy. It has made simple freewill complicated. It has made laws against things that are not wrong. It has made laws in violation of the pursuit of life, liberty, and happiness for all... to try to funnel that power of will into the hands of a few hundred so that these people may live as gods in their own minds because they know they sit at the top of a pyramid scheme where through money they get to dictate the conditions of life to the masses (especially in the United states) with the threat of not getting paid... equating to not being able to live... equating to not being able to be happy get what you want or survive... Unless you do what you are told for some money under the pretense of it being a job that is legitimate. You are only told to press a button and you get paid... "But you don’t know that every time you press that button someone dies..." Then you go home and struggle to pay bills and live a happy life having to give more of yourself after you have already labored for someone else so long... The people who have this system in place have had us do the research on ourselves to give to them to teach them how to best control us... And they know that the stress is bad and causes illness… And they still have nothing but we people. We are what is valuable! But that is why they have to control us with fears. We told them that those conditions would make us react adversely… They know fear and stress makes people change their thought process. So we stuck in this rat race that they created, try to live according to someone else’s rules, when we are supposed to be free. Free is completely free, not partially. Even Cops have been grossly inflated into something that it was not originally intended to be. Cop, was an acronym. C.O.P. Citizens on Patrol. And Cops were people that would be out and about and if they saw someone doing something wrong would call to the other citizens that were around and witnesses and they would escort the person down to the jail. And the jail was pretty much a box with security guards. But people took care of themselves and their families. And we are SUPPOSED to find ways to be self-sustainable and take care of our families and continue to learn and grow and evolve through the oneness attain through the knowledge of our surroundings which grows into understanding of even other things because we are all have freewill that makes us capable. And nature itself through nature means/ways (Simple basic laws of physics) has always had a way of fixing and weeding out what needed to go, change or evolve so that the entire collective system is able to grow and evolve to the next level. The powers that be have created hell on earth to try to make evolution slow down and even become stagnant by keeping our minds focused on things that have no intellectual value and teach us things backwards so that it is more difficult for us to figure out the truth because like the bible says the truth will set us free... Why would a good just god make us have to go through hell again...? Whoever tried to deceive us by concealing the truth messed up because in their deceit... Misrepresenting the truth... There is still truth in there that we can identify because it lines up with real life. Then once we can sort out the truth and apply it to life, it starts to evolve us Look at the hidden messages in movies like the matrix and 2012: It's Time for a Change, and What the Bleep Do We Know Anyway. Checkout any movies about conspiracies, governments, aliens, cults, and what they illustrate... Then look at the similarities to real life... Then ask yourself why people always say... Ah that’s just a movie... That stuff isn't real... Who started that saying? Why are there so many layers used to deceive people’s minds and keep their attention focused on what other people have perpetuated through society, instead of letting people be individuals and be thinkers... Why isn't all knowledge about the human body used for good...? Why when someone creates new technology do the greedy people want to buy it and lock it away instead of providing the technology for the people in a caring not greedy way in order to allow harmony make us thrive? It is time for change. It is time for us collective as people to take ownership of our home. This planet... We are one people, and we have to live here together. If we destroy this place and each other, we will have nowhere to go. The technology is not even common knowledge to be able to leave from here like it should be. So if you want to know what you can do for yourselves, to save your families, to be free, to assist in taking care of our home our planet, if you want to go to the stars or find out if there really is other life in outer space, (as we call it) or you ever wanted to meet the life that maybe present, or you just want to live in peace and be able to be happy and meditate, start doing research. I recommended starting by watching a Movie called What the Bleep Do We Know Anyway, and 2012: It's Time for Change. We are humans... This makes us the same. We are not competitors against each other like we have been taught to be. Even money was supposed to be freely exchanged in order to keep the energy that makes work happen from people in balance and constant motion. It was never intended to be exploited by greedy people who would sit on top of a whole bunch of money to prevent other people from being able to have services rendered to themselves like anyone else with the capacity to make the decision to want. But that is exactly what has been done. So some people have so much money they can’t even create enough jobs to give the money back to people who need it... when being forced into jobs, being a servant to someone else, is a violation of freewill and human right. Treason has been committed towards the human race when individual knowledge and enlightenment is outlawed and shrouded by someone else will... and when cure for problems that people could have figured out on their own are hidden, outlawed, and controlled with unreasonable conditions set on obtaining them. That does not correlate with... We hold these truths to be self-evident that all men are created equal and have the right to the pursuit of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness... Like this illusion was supposed to be founded on... So learn and then create... Even the bible tells us that we were created in the image of a creator... Let’s learn who we really are and preserve ourselves. I want to start a non-profit organization to teach truth and honest fact about everything. Because preserving those attributes means exposing the truth for all to see. Like the bible says the truth will set us free... Whoever started the deception of the human race was not even good at it. That’s why they keep adding layer after layer over the top of their deceits to shroud the trail of wickedness in high places in things that play on the emotions of the human mind and body and induce negative responses. I love you all and wish for you all to be free. I wish you all health. I wish you all love. I wish you all prosperity. And most of all I wish you freewill because it is beautiful. Freewill is the only reason why we have learned as much as we have. And it is the only thing that will teach us how to make things better. It is the only reason why things are as good as they are now... But there are still problems... and those who want to suppress the positive growth that can't even be stopped anyways. But they will keep trying, even till the flame is just a smoldering tip of a candle stick that was just extinguished... and then some. All ready so much power and will has been displaced. We must bring balance back. Then channel our wills into positive actions which to stick to truth means first going back to basics. First we have to create harmony with our bodies... Look into meditation... then we have to restore balance between man and the earth... Look into nature. Once we have rekindled our balance with the earth... We will evolve with nature just like we had always done before jealously, envy, greed and evil caused people to be able to start pouring corruption into government systems that were supposed to preserve simple common basic needs, rights, and choices. We can take in any information as an experience... WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO DO WITH THE CHOICES YOU HAVE, BASED ON WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED. Because that is all that matter as an individual... What are you going to do with what you know? Anyone who wants to assist in the creation of the organization for the preservation of freewill and the planet you can reply to me via this post to show interest. I will keep putting up post about what is going on as things develop. Peace love and liberty to all eternal beings of love. Let’s not give any more power to things that don’t really exist. Let’s find the truth together! Even the evils that be, are the way they are because it is a product of their experience and what they have learned. We know nothing better because we were never taught better. Let’s live and learn together in individual oneness where we can all see how we relate to the whole. Nama.

[Clarence Young]

Thank you Christina... But it was not my wife that was lost... I mean, I lost my wife, but not in that way.

 

[CHRISTINA]

thank you clarence for sharing your insights.

i had to fight back tears when i was reading the first part. your wife was a wise woman.

how is your son doing? wishing him and you love, peace, health and happiness too.

christina

[JIM4HOPE]

Thanks Clarence for sharing this story and spreading the  awareness about whats going on around us.