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my father
Im not quite sure how to write this and as it is 4.55 am and having been awake since 3.33 i am fairly tired and my words may not be too eloquent - having said that, i shall give it my best shot.!
Ever since I was a little girl I always felt I had a deep deep bond with my father, deeper than normal. at 16 it became too much to bare, it almost hurt to see him, i had to cut contact for 6 months. we re-gained contact but it all started again and until 3 years ago i would see him weekly, but each time I did I was left feeling empty and needy. 3 years ago i totally cut all ties with him but have thought about him every day with love not hate. For the last few months i have been thinking about him a lot and about the wierdly strange bond we seemed to have. Writing this sounds makes it sound almost nasty but I assure you its not, is it possible that my father and I (although he isnt aware) have some other connection than just father and daughter and that i am aware of it but he isnt??? It has become increasingly eveident to me that I need to contact him to re-connect but to be honest I am terrified of feeling the hurt I used to feel. Anyone had similar? anyone shed any light on this? Am i just a total odd ball??
Hope i mad sense...ish, need a cup of tea!
love in your heart, light in your soul, laughter in your voice.
shelley x
Ever since I was a little girl I always felt I had a deep deep bond with my father, deeper than normal. at 16 it became too much to bare, it almost hurt to see him, i had to cut contact for 6 months. we re-gained contact but it all started again and until 3 years ago i would see him weekly, but each time I did I was left feeling empty and needy. 3 years ago i totally cut all ties with him but have thought about him every day with love not hate. For the last few months i have been thinking about him a lot and about the wierdly strange bond we seemed to have. Writing this sounds makes it sound almost nasty but I assure you its not, is it possible that my father and I (although he isnt aware) have some other connection than just father and daughter and that i am aware of it but he isnt??? It has become increasingly eveident to me that I need to contact him to re-connect but to be honest I am terrified of feeling the hurt I used to feel. Anyone had similar? anyone shed any light on this? Am i just a total odd ball??
Hope i mad sense...ish, need a cup of tea!
love in your heart, light in your soul, laughter in your voice.
shelley x
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