i have been a member of this community for quite some time now but havent 'formally' introduced myself. Here goes!
I opened my eyes to this planet on April 9th, 1979, born and raised in the UK by two fairly disfunctional parents, and so began my journey.
I always felt I was different, an outsider even though throughout my school years I had many friends. I just felt that I saw the world from a totally different perspective to everyone else around me. I always had a longing for answers and and a heartache that was so intense at times it almost took my breath away. I knew in my heart of hearts that there was more to life.
I found myself with huge issues with authority and rebelled against it at every opportunity resulting in my parents nearlly totally losing their marbles with dispair at what they should do with me! I was what one would call 'difficult' to put it mildly!
Throughout childhood and my teenage years I was plagued with depression and a desperate feeling of what I can only describe as homesick, i didnt belong on this earth but never knew where I should be. I never knew what to do with my feelings of hopelessness and so turned to what many people do: drugs and alcohol, to make me forget, help me to escape the harsh reality.
I did actually manage to aquire to formal qualifications when I left school but still to this day i cannot fathom out how as most of my time was spent hiding in bushes smoking and running away from teachers!
From the age of 14 to about fours years ago my pain (grief?) manifested itself against myself, I went into self destruct mode and found myself in hospital more than 15 times.
Im not sure how, or why I managed to turn the corner, especially in the last 3 years, i think it must be my research into spirituality and source and love. I dont feel alone anymore and know that I am looked after. I joined this community after reading a lot of karen Bishops words, 10.14.08 and Blossom Goodchild as I at last felt that there was something concrete and 'real' to put my hope and faith in.
My life has changed for the better in so many ways. I am calm and happy apart from when im experiencing the major ups and downs of the rollercoaster ride of ascension!
I have told you briefly about my life, not for the sympathy vote, (I dont do sympathy!) as in a strange way, I am grateful for my experiences as it has made me who and what I am today. I have told you because it sheds a little light on Andromeda as a person. I hope my truth hasnt given a negative image to you of myself, I am that I am, me.
Thank you for reading.
and thank you for SOE