Uncomfortable?

[Lee]

I sit here, staring at this screen, thinking about a comment paTricia left on another blog of mine about being uncomfortable.  Putting herself "out there" as she says.  Five minutes have passed.  Still thinking.  Have I put myself out there?  I think not.  Talking about ufos, lil voices that whisper or even things shown in that area cause me no discomfort.

 

Still thinking.....  If I spoke about the Darkness would I get the same reaction here, on this site, that I recieve on darker sites when I talk about the Light?  Hmmmm.....I wonder.  Its rather amusing that on the darker sites they to have their channelings and such.  Just like here. 

 

Sometimes I feel like a square peg trying to fit in a round hole.  Not completely Light nor Dark but in between.  Nice and balanced.  Wasn't always that way. 

 

Have I put myself out there yet?  Not yet.  I am still thinking.  What do you call one that takes your energy/chi from you without asking?  Would one that asks beforehand be called the same?  Have I put myself out there yet?  Almost.

 

I am/have been the second one.  Even then I nudged those I asked more to the Light.  There is a battle going on right now between people's ears.  Still thinking.......

[nonya]

BTW, i dont know if I buy into the whole fallen angel theory. I am of the belief that "demons" are derived from mythological bible stories, but are actually metaphors. I do believe that when we make freewill decisions to not be in service to others at ALL TIMES, then darker energies are allowed in our path to steer us back (by consequence) to Source. I see them as having a job to do on our behalf and given a"hail mary" pass to zoom in and teach us a lesson......thats my theory at least.

[nonya]

Ok, wow, so all of the definitions you put below...are these definitions to you? Are they what you believe in? What is your opinion on the history? What is LHP? How do you carry it further? Would you say that you play in the dark sandbox or do you go back and forth? If the answer is, back and forth, is it because you have a hard time deciding which brings you more fulfillment? Are you able to perform rituals? Have you ever been deeply involved in dark occults.

Note; I am fascinated by this and in no way am i judging and i am not affiliated with any religion nor am I of the belief that all things or people are bad. If you think I am getting to personal with my questions, feel free to tell me to knock it off. Sometimes I get carried away with my thirst for knowledge....safe to say I am a knowledge junkie and like any drug, I never get enough.

[Lee]

A caul is a portion of the amniotic sac which clings to an infant as it is being born. As a result, the child is born either entirely or partially still inside the amniotic sac, which often forms a veil over the infant's face.

In some parts of Eastern Europe, people believed that an infant born with a caul was doomed to be a vampire later in life or after death. Some people destroyed cauls at birth to prevent this fate, and in other instances the caul was dried and ground into a powder which was fed to the child at a certain age, in the theory that this prevented vampirism. http://www.wisegeek.com/what-is-a-caul.htm

Thats messed up. I didn't know people in EU believed that, lol.



Yes its energy feeding. A different form of energy work. Another's energy is taken into yourself and kept. On a mental/emotional level, for me, its like one big giddy happy pill. On a physical level its tingly, lots of heat, my vision (eyesight) sharpens and everything feels ON. If that makes sense to you. I did it becasue its very very enjoyable. Depending on who you talk to about it the history is debatable. I have my own opinions.



The following is defintions from the LHP end.

VAMPIRISM – A secret art of Predatory Spiritualism, which involves astral projection
and aspects of Lycanthropy, communion with the dead and necromantic workings

LYCANTHROPY – Assumption of astral and conscious transformation in to an animal
form. Used in Dreaming Projection and atavistic rituals.

NECROMANCY – Evocation and communion with the Dead.

They see it stemming from a demonic source. I carry it a lil bit further than that. Whats a demon anyway but a fallen angel?

[nonya]

Is the veil over the face called a caul?

[nonya]

Ok, so this energy feeding, you go whole hog.....please, since I can only imagine what this is like, can you visually help me out with this, cuz all that comes to my monkey mind is a vampire, but I am sure there is more to it. What do you get out of it? How does it feel? Why do you do it? What is the history of this practice?

[Lee]

I've been experiencing the connecting dots of info and the connecting of past events to ones in the present.

Nonya I was born 3 months premature.  A kicking miscarriage back then.  I can remember being born and what was said by someone there.  If I had a caul at birth I am not aware of it.  Dabbling is a no no. I go whole hog if I do anything haha.  Your on the right track.  It is a art.  Thats a interesting idea "duality of gaurdians".  That would explain some things.  Hmmmmm.

[nonya]

LEE, it doesnt seem like you are speaking anything foreign to most of us. Sounds like you have a boatload of interesting things happening to you. Do you have a propensity for these things to be happening? I know this might sound silly, but were you one of those children born with a veil over your head? I have run into a couple of those in my lifetime and they always have a lot of metaphysical occurances happening in and around them. It always appears to me that those events are cool, but to the people themselves, they find it challenging and well...not so cool.

So far what I am picking up is, you dable in the art of psychic energy feeding, you are taken places in dreams, you (with the rest of us) know that there are aliens (maybe an abductee?). The muslim stuff i am not understanding....yet, and you have had or are having experiences of the duality guardians (angels/demons).  Am I on track?

[Lee]

I am used to not talking about much of what I have experienced.  For the most part before I came here most couldn't relate or even grasp what I was even talking about.  The whole "alien" thing for instance.  Here was the first place I've read of any having things happen similar to my experiences. 

 

Its straight across the board with the different things.  Demons/angels.  Places taken to in dreams.  Even Muslim stuff and I'm not Muslim haha.  Stuff I don't talk about in public.  Not for fear of ridicule.  I got over that a long time ago.  No one could relate to it.  So it was a big "huh?"

 

I was actually led here.  The merkabah sysmbol this site has was like a big bright "here" sign. 

 

 

[nonya]

LEE, i say "holy simone" because she hangs out with the catholics....its meant as sarcasm and she would know that if she were here. We love her.

So you are a polite psychic vampire? Thats cool. I have amillion questions on that alone. Do you have any more aspects you would like to share? Man, I wish I knew what my astral form would be.....i am guessing a centaur or minotaur....maybe that is just wishful thinking.,,,,i AM NOT a fairy type that is for sure.

[Lee]

Nonya I meant the usual "knee jerk" reaction most have to anything thats opposite of where they are at.  Yes a polite invited vampire, lol.  The blog was just me revealing aspects of myself I normally don't share.  PaTricia got me thinking about why I don't.  I have noticed most here are very open minded. 

 

Holy Simone?  That sounds interesting.  PaTricia I've seen my astral form a few times.  Usually depends on what I am doing.  Thats always strange.