Uncomfortable?

[Lee]

I sit here, staring at this screen, thinking about a comment paTricia left on another blog of mine about being uncomfortable.  Putting herself "out there" as she says.  Five minutes have passed.  Still thinking.  Have I put myself out there?  I think not.  Talking about ufos, lil voices that whisper or even things shown in that area cause me no discomfort.

 

Still thinking.....  If I spoke about the Darkness would I get the same reaction here, on this site, that I recieve on darker sites when I talk about the Light?  Hmmmm.....I wonder.  Its rather amusing that on the darker sites they to have their channelings and such.  Just like here. 

 

Sometimes I feel like a square peg trying to fit in a round hole.  Not completely Light nor Dark but in between.  Nice and balanced.  Wasn't always that way. 

 

Have I put myself out there yet?  Not yet.  I am still thinking.  What do you call one that takes your energy/chi from you without asking?  Would one that asks beforehand be called the same?  Have I put myself out there yet?  Almost.

 

I am/have been the second one.  Even then I nudged those I asked more to the Light.  There is a battle going on right now between people's ears.  Still thinking.......

[nonya]

Have i worn you out yet Lee ;-)

[nonya]

So, according to your avavtar, you are a believer in a light entity, "source", "god"? or something else?

Your past life/higher self is a vampire type?

You are self taught? Were your parental units into this or against stuff like this?

 

[Lee]

The merging is elevated awareness.  It can be used for healing another or the two at the same time. Two working together do get things done faster.  I cannot speak for anyone else but the few times I have acheived that merging it opens other doors.  Its like bliss or ecstasy. 

[Lee]

As far as the dreams I never asked em.  They were to busy with the superior big head thing going on. hahaha

[Lee]

Lol.  For lack of a better term , my vamperic self taught me but at the time I thought it was a separate being.  Think past life/higher self.  Psi is short for psychic.  When I was around other vamps they would probe and dig around.  Thats a attack to me and quite rude. 

 

I didnt go there to turn em as you say as a intent.  If the opening appeared I took advantage of it.  The sites I went to looking for info about what was happening with me at the time.  The only thing those sites did for me was all the different terms for things I had been doing for years.  The sites and those types of places have been dumped.  They do not help me in anyway.  More of a irritant than anything.

 

The poopage stems from the fact they want to believe they are supernatural in some way.  Want to believe they aren't human.  Not all but most.  To me the vampire term only applies to the "taking" part.  The feeding.  Energy/psi area is much broader than that lil slice.

[nonya]

What could possibly be in need of someone merging energies with someone else? I dont understand what the use of merging with someone else would be? Is it used for healing each other? Is it like wonder twin powers where you can banish something quicker with two energies working together? I am sorry i am so ignorant to all of this. Maybe my questions are a bit sophomoric, but I have only known about this superficially and never been around anyone who has direct contact.

[nonya]

crap, now i just have more questions.  Ok, so who told you this history, it seems like you were personally tutored on this.

Who and how attacks you in a "psi" way? To me "psi" means pressure per square inch. Im sure thats not how you are meaning it.

Do you willing go to these places to turn people in another direction? Do you frequent many of these places/websites?

 

"The history part was shown/told to me the same way I was taught.  In dreams.  Oh boy did that cause all kinds of poopage in the VC (vampire community) haha. "

why did that cause poopage? Do they not believe in dreams?

[Lee]

I see it as coming from a angelic/light source.  Just ended up being corrupted over time. The LHP is things like satanism, luciferian or any dark natured path.  I arrive at the sandbox when someone attacks me in a psi way. Not infilitrate but if someone asks Ill point to another way. 

 

Most of em are unhappy and darkness ALL the time 24/7 isn't a good thing.  If the opening appears in another I take the oppurtunity to show another way to be.   I dont confront them but if they are froggy towards me Ill jump right back at em. 

 

The history part was shown/told to me the same way I was taught.  In dreams.  Oh boy did that cause all kinds of poopage in the VC (vampire community) haha. 

 

Back whenever there was a race of people with certain abilities others didn't generally share.  Things like dreamwalking, astral travel and all the normal things associated with psychic abilities.  It was just more concentrated in that race or people.  They were human. 

 

Fear set in among the ones around them.  Next thing you know its a full on attack.  They werent called vampires back then thats a modern word or label.  The name was told to me but i cant even begin to pronounce it.  They were basically anniliated.  The ones that escaped hid from the ones killing them.  As everyone knows the graveyard has always been steeped in superstition. 

 

Good place to hide during the day and travel at nite trying to get away.  Lack of sunlight over time one gets pale.  Nothing supernatural about it.  Dream walking is just what it means.  Entering another's dream.  The fangs come from the astral/dream appearance/form.   

 

The feeding started out as a union/merging of two or more on a purely spiritual level.  Combining energies for the benefit of those involved.  Sharing.  It eventually went to being one sided aka feeding as its known now.  Thats why in a earlier comment i alluded to the "willing" participant.  Most that feed just take and give nothing back. 

 

The best way to know if someone did so, is where they take from, will feel like a cold spot on you. Very localized.  You may get tired. Even sleepy.  Depending on the skill of the one doing it can cause pain.  Like a sharp fast jab. 

 

I cannot prove anything of the history part but thats what i was shown and told.

[nonya]

LEE, sorry to bother you but you didnt answer some of the other questions.

"They see it stemming from a demonic source. I carry it a lil bit further than that."  how do you carry it further?

" Depending on who you talk to about it the history is debatable. I have my own opinions. "  what is your opinion on the history?

Is there someplace I can look to find what the Left Hand Path is....preferably a site that is based on truth.

You state that play in the dark sanbox at times.....what brings you to that place? Are you trying to infiltrate them in your own way to lead them out of this dark place? Do you enjoy confronting them to put them in their place? Please explain.

[Lee]

The defintions are of the Left Hand Path.  Those are Luciferian ones. They are not me. I carry it further to mean of a angelic nature not strictly demonic. Meaning the way most so called vamps go about their business is slanted dark.

 

 I play in the dark sandbox at times usually when I am dealing with darkies in a confrontational way. Thats all they understand.  I can perform rituals but find them a waste of time.  Dark occult I have experienced.  Its not me. Doesnt fit.  Your questions are fine.  Np.