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I use this blog because it one of the only places i can come to that people listen and genuinely care. I write this becuase i am really hurting right now. Ive never had the effects of heartbreak hit me so bad. I cant eat because it feels like there's a stab wound in my stomach, I cant sleep until i pass out because i can only think about her, and how i want her back so bad. if i wake up, i can never get back to sleep. Ive started shaking, my body feels so weak. I guess ive never loved anyone as much as i loved her. She really was my angel, She pulled me out of depression once before, made me so happy to be alive, but i fell back into to it.

When we started out everything was great, we had a year and a half together of bliss. We had plans to move to Scotland together. I got over there, found a job, and set up a place to stay, but she had lost her job over in the US, and couldn't afford to come over.

I came back for her. This is what got me into my depression. I missed my friends, and i had no direction. For a year and a half I worked a crappy job, But the only time i was truly happy was when i was with her.

I was depressed for a long long time, i did nothing, I didn't feel worthy enough for her love or to love myself. i
stagnated, it effected our relationship. The only thing that has
triggered me to change and start living was her leaving me.
Thing is. I want her back more than anything. I love her with all of my
heart. I was devastated when she left, but more devastated that i could
have saved things but didn't see the light in myself to try. Well i feel
the light now. I see the light now, My heart is on fire and my flame
has awakened bursting forth like the Phoenix out of the ashes. I love
this girl more than anything i have ever loved ever. More than the sun
and the moon and the world. She is my world. Nothing would make me
happier than to put a ring on her finger, Nothing would make me happier
to see her happy. I want to see her laugh, i want to see her cry so i
can wrap my arms around her and make her know that everything is fine
because she will always have my love. I want to grow old,and have kids
with her.

Im starting therapy next week so hopefully my body will be able to function normally again. Im finally going back to college in January, If i start college i can get a start at my dads company where i will make enough money to support us both. Im turning my life around because i dont mant to be that person i was for a year. I want to be the person she deserves. I want to be the man shes always dreamed of. I will be that man. I love her so much. Getting her back is the only thing on my mind, and i 100% dedicated to that pursuit.

I am focusing all my intentions on being with her. I read the secret,
and watched the movie. I will make the universe work for me, because
this is the only thing i have felt this strongly about.
If you will, i want to ask for your assistance, from anyone that is willing to share their intention, to share their advice. I'm asking for the help of the saviors of earth community, to help me bend the universe to get her back to me. If you need an image, that is Her and I on my profile, shes the girl with the tiara. Please help me bring this miracle back into my life.

She is the other half of my soul. I know shes my soul mate. i love her with an undying unflinching passion.

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Comment by Vaddix on October 17, 2010 at 12:46am
Daisy. In my childhood i grew up with a single mother, my Grandparents who have been madly in love since the age of 16 and two sisters. My dad came later. But Ive always been more understanding of woman, Ive always emotionally been more of a woman. Its embarrassing to admit, but its a product of my upbringing.
I guess i just need to find my masculine energy. I need to show her that i can be myself, and love it, and i want to help her be herself and love it as well, So we can both live life crazy about each other like my grandparents are.
Comment by Jen on October 16, 2010 at 9:50am
wow....to be loved like that. This woman is very lucky indeed. undying, unflinching passion.....you deserve to bend time and get her back.
Comment by Simmy on October 16, 2010 at 8:45am
Vaddix, your are so sweet. She's a lucky girl indeed!
You know what? You are doing the absolute right thing: starting therapy; going back to college; soon staring on a new job. You must do all that for yourself. Be the person you want to feel proud of when you look in the mirror.
It's easier to give into depression and do nothing, but you are a fighter and you want to change and be happy; and you WILL!
When you get to that place you are fighting to be, if your girl really loves you, she will be back with you. She will see that, above all, you can save yourself, that you love yourself; and she will know that her love will be safe with you. If she doesn't come back...it will be her loss, not yours. At this point it won't matter, because your heart with be strong again and ready for your true love. Be strong and don't give up! I will be sending my love to both of you.
Comment by Vaddix on October 16, 2010 at 7:42am
thank you guys. My heart belongs to her, but without her, it feels like there's an empty space where it used to be, like i need to regrow a new heart. I'm focusing all i can with my intentions, I will get her back. Im just having a really difficult time without her.
Comment by ૐ Daisy ૐ on October 16, 2010 at 12:24am
Awee,, You know what. Any girl would LOVE to read this about here..the fact is that most men cannot or will not express their feelings this way..and i think she's a lucky girl.. I feel like you will be back together! Just keep on keepin on ya know? and know you deserve her love, all of that and more!!!!! Im serious about that.
Im sure she would love to see your smile again as well. And that would be a good start.. i know its hard but you just gotta continue to try.
xoxoxo.. much love

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